书城公版THE MILL ON THE FLOSS
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He repeated the words impatiently from time to time, appearing entirely unconscious of everything except this one importunate want, and giving no sign of knowing his wife or any one else, and poor Mrs Tulliver, her feeble faculties almost paralysed by this sudden accumulation of troubles, went backwards and forwards to the gate to see if the Laceham coach were coming, though it was not yet time.

But it came at last and set down the poor anxious girl, no longer the `little wench' except to her father's fond memory.

`O mother, what is the matter?' Maggie said, with pale lips, as her mother came towards her crying.She didn't think her father was ill, because the letter had come at his dictation from the office at St Ogg's.

But Mr Turnbull came now to meet her: a medical man is the good angel of the troubled house, and Maggie ran towards the kind old friend whom she remembered as long as she could remember anything, with a trembling, questioning look.

`Don't alarm yourself too much, my dear,' he said, taking her hand.

`Your father has had a sudden attack, and has not quite recovered his memory.

But he has been asking for you, and it will do him good to see you.Keep as quiet as you can: take off your things and come upstairs with me.'

Maggie obeyed, with that terrible beating of the heart which makes existence seem simply a painful pulsation.The very quietness with which Mr Turnbull spoke, had frightened her susceptible imagination.Her father's eyes were still turned uneasily towards the door when she entered and met the strange, yearning, helpless look that had been seeking her in vain.With a sudden flash and movement, he raised himself in the bed - she rushed towards him, and clasped him with agonised kisses.

Poor child! it was very early for her to know one of those supreme moments in life when all we have hoped or delighted in, all we can dread or endure, falls away from our regard as insignificant, - is lost, like a trivial memory, in that ******, primitive love which knits us to the beings who have been nearest to us, in their times of helplessness or of anguish.

But that flash of recognition had been too great a strain on the father's bruised, enfeebled powers.He sank back again in renewed insensibility and rigidity which lasted for many hours, and was only broken by flickering returns of consciousness, in which he took passively everything that was given to him and seemed to have a sort of infantine satisfaction in Maggie's near presence - such satisfaction as a baby has when it is returned to the nurse's lap.

Mrs Tulliver sent for her sisters, and there was much wailing and lifting up of hands below stairs: both uncles and aunts saw that the ruin of Bessy and her family was as complete as they had ever foreboded it, and there was a general family sense that a judgment had fallen on Mr Tulliver, which it would be an impiety to counteract by too much kindness.But Maggie heard little of this, scarcely ever leaving her father's bedside, where she sat opposite him with her hand on his.Mrs Tulliver wanted to have Tom fetched home, and seemed to be thinking more of her boy even than of her husband;but the aunts and uncles opposed this - Tom was better at school, since Mr Turnbull said there was no immediate danger, he believed.But at the end of the second day, when Maggie had become more accustomed to her father's fits of insensibility, and to the expectation that he would revive from them, the thought of Tom had become urgent with her too, and when her mother sate crying at night and saying, `My poor lad...it's nothing but right he should come home,' Maggie said, `Let me go for him, and tell him, mother: I'll go tomorrow morning if father doesn't know me and want me.It would be so hard for Tom to come home and not know anything about it beforehand.'

And the next morning Maggie went, as we have seen.Sitting on the coach on their way home, the brother and sister talked to each other in sad, interrupted whispers.

`They say Mr Wakem has got a mortgage or something on the land, Tom,'

said Maggie.`It was the letter with that news in it that made father ill, they think.'

`I believe that scoundrel's been planning all along to ruin my father,'

said Tom, leaping from the vaguest impressions to a definite conclusion.

`I'll make him feel for it when I'm a man.Mind you never speak to Philip again.'

`O Tom!' said Maggie, in a tone of sad remonstrance; but she had no spirit to dispute anything then, still less to vex Tom by opposing him.