"No, indeed, I'm not tired; what have I done to tire me?" Isabel felt a certain need of being very direct, of pretending to nothing;there was something in the air, in her general impression of things-she could hardly have said what it was- that deprived her of all disposition to put herself forward.The place, the occasion, the combination of people, signified more than lay on the surface; she would try to understand- she would not simply utter graceful platitudes.Poor Isabel was doubtless not aware that many women would have uttered graceful platitudes to cover the working of their observation.It must be confessed that her pride was a trifle alarmed.
A man she had heard spoken of in terms that excited interest and who was evidently capable of distinguishing himself, had invited her, a young lady not lavish of her favours, to come to his house.Now that she had done so the burden of the entertainment rested naturally on his wit.Isabel was not rendered less observant, and for the moment, we judge, she was not rendered more indulgent, by perceiving that Mr.Osmond carried his burden less complacently than might have been expected."What a fool I was to have let myself so needlessly in-!"she could fancy his exclaiming to himself.
"You'll be tired when you go home, if he shows you all his bibelots and gives you a lecture on each," said the Countess Gemini.
"I'm not afraid of that; but if I'm tired I shall at least have learned something.""Very little, I suspect.But my sister's dreadfully afraid of learning anything," said Mr.Osmond.
"Oh, I confess to that; I don't want to know anything more- I know too much already.The more you know the more unhappy you are.""You should not undervalue knowledge before Pansy, who has not finished her education," Madame Merle interposed with a smile.
"Pansy will never know any harm," said the child's father.
"Pansy's a little convent-flower."
"Oh, the convents, the convents!" cried the Countess with a flutter of her ruffles."Speak to me of the convents! You may learn anything there; I'm a convent-flower myself.I don't pretend to be good, but the nuns do.Don't you see what I mean?" she went on, appealing to Isabel.
Isabel was not sure she saw, and she answered that she was very bad at following arguments.The Countess then declared that she herself detested arguments, but that this was her brother's taste-he would always discuss."For me," she said, "one should like a thing or one shouldn't; one can't like everything, of course.But one shouldn't attempt to reason it out- you never know where it may lead you.There are some very good feelings that may have bad reasons, don't you know? And then there are very bad feelings, sometimes, that have good reasons.Don't you see what I mean? I don't care anything about reasons, but I know what I like.""Ah, that's the great thing," said Isabel, smiling and suspecting that her acquaintance with this lightly-flitting personage would not lead to intellectual repose.If the Countess objected to argument Isabel at this moment had as little taste for it, and she put out her hand to Pansy with a pleasant sense that such a gesture committed her to nothing that would admit of a divergence of views.
Gilbert Osmond apparently took a rather hopeless view of his sister's tone; he turned the conversation to another topic.He presently sat down on the other side of his daughter, who had shyly brushed Isabel's fingers with her own; but he ended by drawing her out of her chair and ****** her stand between his knees, leaning against him while he passed his arm round her slimness.The child fixed her eyes on Isabel with a still, disinterested gaze which seemed void of an intention, yet conscious of an attraction.Mr.Osmond talked of many things; Madame Merle had said he could be agreeable when he chose, and to-day, after a little, he appeared not only to have chosen but to have determined.Madame Merle and the Countess Gemini sat a little apart, conversing in the effortless manner of persons who knew each other well enough to take their ease; but every now and then Isabel heard the Countess, at something said by her companion, plunge into the latter's lucidity as a poodle splashes after a thrown stick.It was as if Madame Merle were seeing how far she would go.Mr.Osmond talked of Florence, of Italy, of the pleasure of living in that country and of the abatements to the pleasure.There were both satisfactions and drawbacks; the drawbacks were numerous;strangers were too apt to see such a world as all romantic.It met the case soothingly for the human, for the social failure- by which he meant the people who couldn't "realize," as they said, on their sensibility: they could keep it about them there, in their poverty, without ridicule, as you might keep an heirloom or an inconvenient entailed place that brought you in nothing.Thus there were advantages in living in the country which contained the greatest sum of beauty.
Certain impressions you could get only there.Others, favourable to life, you never got, and you got some that were very bad.But from time to time you got one of a quality that made up for everything.