MORE SCHOOLING.
The first opportunity Donal had, he questioned Fergus as to his share in the ill-usage of Gibbie.Fergus treated the inquiry as an impertinent interference, and mounted his high horse at once.What right had his father's herd-boy to question him as to his conduct?
He put it so to him and in nearly just as many words.Thereupon answered Donal--"It's this, ye see, Fergus: ye hae been unco guid to me, an' I'm mair obligatit till ye nor I can say.But it wad be a scunnerfu'
thing to tak the len' o' buiks frae ye, an' spier quest'ons at ye 'at I canna mak oot mysel', an' syne gang awa despisin' ye i' my hert for cruelty an' wrang.What was the cratur punished for? Tell me that.Accordin' till yer aunt's ain accoont, he had taen naething, an' had dune naething but guid.""Why didn't he speak up then, and defend himself, and not be so damned obstinate?" returned Fergus."He wouldn't open his mouth to tell his name, or where he came from even.I couldn't get him to utter a single word.As for his punishment, it was by the laird's orders that Angus Mac Pholp took the whip to him.I had nothing to do with it.--"Fergus did not consider the punishment he had himself given him as worth mentioning--as indeed, except for honesty's sake, it was not, beside the other.
"Weel, I'll be a man some day, an' Angus 'll hae to sattle wi' me!"said Donal through his clenched teeth."Man, Fergus! the cratur's as dumb's a worum.I dinna believe 'at ever he spak a word in's life."This cut Fergus to the heart, for he was far from being without generosity or pity.How many things a man who is not awake to side strenuously with the good in him against the evil, who is not on his guard lest himself should mislead himself, may do, of which he will one day be bitterly ashamed!--a trite remark, it may be, but, reader, that will make the thing itself no easier to bear, should you ever come to know you have done a thing of the sort.I fear, however, from what I know of Fergus afterwards, that he now, instead of seeking about to make some amends, turned the strength that should have gone in that direction, to the justifying of himself to himself in what he had done.Anyhow, he was far too proud to confess to Donal that he had done wrong--too much offended at being rebuked by one he counted so immeasurably his inferior, to do the right thing his rebuke set before him.What did the mighty business matter! The little rascal was nothing but a tramp; and if he didn't deserve his punishment this time, he had deserved it a hundred times without having it, and would ten thousand times again.So reasoned Fergus, while the feeling grew upon Donal that the cratur was of some superior race--came from some other and nobler world.I would remind my reader that Donal was a Celt, with a nature open to every fancy of love or awe--one of the same breed with the foolish Galatians, and like them ready to be bewitched; but bearing a heart that welcomed the light with glad rebound--loved the lovely, nor loved it only, but turned towards it with desire to become like it.
Fergus too was a Celt in the main, but was spoiled by the paltry ambition of being distinguished.He was not in love with loveliness, but in love with praise.He saw not a little of what was good and noble, and would fain be such, but mainly that men might regard him for his goodness and nobility; hence his practical notion of the good was weak, and of the noble, paltry.His one desire in doing anything, was to be approved of or admired in the same--approved of in the opinions he held, in the plans he pursued, in the doctrines he taught; admired in the poems in which he went halting after Byron, and in the eloquence with which he meant one day to astonish great congregations.There was nothing original as yet discoverable in him; nothing to deliver him from the poor imitative apery in which he imagined himself a poet.He did possess one invaluable gift--that of perceiving and admiring more than a little, certain forms of the beautiful; but it was rendered merely ridiculous by being conjoined with the miserable ambition--poor as that of any mountebank emperor--to be himself admired for that admiration.He mistook also sensibility for faculty, nor perceived that it was at best but a probable sign that he might be able to do something or other with pleasure, perhaps with success.If any one judge it hard that men should be made with ambitions to whose objects they can never attain, I answer, ambition is but the evil shadow of aspiration; and no man ever followed the truth, which is the one path of aspiration, and in the end complained that he had been made this way or that.Man is made to be that which he is made most capable of desiring--but it goes without saying that he must desire the thing itself and not its shadow.Man is of the truth, and while he follows a lie, no indication his nature yields will hold, except the fear, the discontent, the sickness of soul, that tell him he is wrong.If he say, "I care not for what you call the substance--it is to me the shadow; I want what you call the shadow,"the only answer is, that, to all eternity, he can never have it: a shadow can never be had.
Ginevra was hardly the same child after the experience of that terrible morning.At no time very much at home with her father, something had now come between them, to remove which all her struggles to love him as before were unavailing.The father was too stupid, too unsympathetic, to take note of the look of fear that crossed her face if ever he addressed her suddenly; and when she was absorbed in fighting the thoughts that would come, he took her constraint for sullenness.