书城外语有一种爱叫放手
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第32章 缘,妙不可言 (2)

布兰福德没有犹豫,他紧抓着那本破旧的《人性的枷锁》,它是他向她证明身份的依据。尽管这不会是爱情,但会是一种珍贵的东西,是他曾经拥有并将会永远感激的友情

布兰福德摆正双肩,敬了个礼,然后把书递给那个女人,尽管他的失望之情似乎已经溢于言表,但他仍彬彬有礼地说道:“我是约翰·布兰福德,您——您是梅内尔女士吧,我可以——可以请您吃饭吗?”

女人微笑着。“孩子,我不明白这是怎么回事,”她说道,“那位穿绿衣服的年轻小姐请求我戴上这朵玫瑰花,她说如果你请我一块出去,就告诉你,她在街对面的餐厅等你。她说这是一种考验。”

红苹果奇缘

Hungry for Your Love

赫尔曼与罗玛·罗é布à特 / Herman and Roma Rosenblat

It is cold, so bitter cold on this dark winter day in 1942. But it is no different from any other day in this Nazi concentration camp. I am almost dead, surviving from day to day, from hour to hour, ever since I was taken from my home and brought here with tens of thousands of other Jews. Will I still be alive tomorrow?Will I be taken to the gas chamber tonight?

Back and forth next to the barbed wire fence trying to keep my emaciated body warm. I am hungry, I have been hungry for long. Each day, as more of us disappear, the happy past seems like a mere dream, and I sink deeper and deeper into despair.

Suddenly, I notice a young girl walking past on the other side of the barbed wire. She stops and looks at me with sad eyes that seem to say that she understands, that she too cannot fathoms why I am here. I want to look away, oddly ashamed for this stranger to see me like this, but I cannot tear my eyes from hers. Then she reaches into her pocket, and pulls out a red apple. Oh, how long has it been since I have seen one! She looks cautiously to the left and to the right and then with smile of triumph quickly throws the apple over the fence. I run to pick it up, holding it in my trembling frozen fingers. In my world of death this apple is an expression of life, of love. I glance up in time to see the girl disappearing into the distance.

The next day I cannot help myself—I am drawn at the same time to that spot near the fence. And again she comes. And again she brings me an apple flinging it over the fence with that same sweet smile. This time I catch it and hold it up for her to see. Her eyes twinkle. For seven months we meet like this. One day I hear frightening news:we're being shipped to another camp.

The next day when I greet her my heart is breaking and I can barely speak as I say what must be said: "Don't bring me an apple tomorrow." I tell her, "I am being sent to another camp." Turning before I lose all my control I run away from the Fence. I cannot bear to look back.

Months pass and the nightmare continues. But the memory of this girl sustains me through the terror, the pain, the hopelessness. And then one day the nightmare is over. The war has ended. Those of us who are still alive are freed. I have lost everything that was precious to me including my family. But I still have the memory of this girl, a memory I carry in my heart and gives me the will to go on as I move to America to start a new life.

Years pass. It is1957. I am living in New York City. A friend convinces me to go on a blind date with a lady of his.Reluctantly, I agree. But she is nice, this woman named Roma, and like me she is an immigrant so we have at least that in common.

"Where were you during the war?" Roma asks me gently in that delicate way immigrants ask one another questions about those years.

"I was in a concentration camp in Germany," I reply.

Roma gets a faraway look in her eyes, as if she is remembering something painful yet sweet.

"What is it?" I ask."I am just thinking about something from my past, Herman," Roma explains in a voice suddenly very soft, "You see, when I was a young girl I lived near a concentration camp. Where was a boy there, a prisoner and for a long while I used to visit him every day. I remember I used to bring him apples. I would throw the apple over the fence and he would be so happy."

Roma sighs heavily and continues," It is hard to describe how we felt about each other—after all we were young and we only exchanged a few words when we could—but I can tell you there was much love there. I assume he was killed like so many others.But I cannot bear to think that, and so I try to remember him as he was for those months we were given together."

With my heart pounding so loudly, I look directly at Roma and ask, "And did that boy say to you one day 'Do not bring me an apple tomorrow. I am being sent to another camp' ?"

"Why, yes." Roma responds, her voice trembling.

"But Herman, how on earth could you possibly know that?"

I take her hands in mine and answer, "Because I was that young boy, Roma."

For many moments, there is only silence. We cannot take our eyes from each other, and as the veils of time lift, we recognize the soul behind the eyes, the dear friend we once loved so much, whom we have never stopped loving, whom we have never stopped remembering.

Finally, I speak, "Look, Roma, I was separated from you once, and I don't ever want to be separated from you again. Now I am free, and I want to be together with you forever. Dear, will you marry me?"

I see the same twinkle in her eyes that I used to see as Roma says, "Yes, I will marry you."

Almost forty years have passed since that day when I found Roma again. Destiny brought us together the first time during the war to show me a promise of hope, and now it had reunited us to fulfill that promise.Valentine's Day, 1996. I bring Roma to the Oprah Winfrey Show to honor her on national television. I want to tell her in front of the millions of the people what I feel in my heart every day:

"Darling, you fed me in the concentration camp when I was hungry.And I am still hungry, for something I will never get enough of : I am only hungry for your love."

1942年冬季的一天,天空昏暗阴冷,寒风刺骨。在纳粹集中营里,天天都是这种日子。自从我和无数犹太人一起被迫离开家园,来到这里以后,每天我就如同行尸走肉一般,活一天是一天,活一小时是一小时。明天,我还能活着吗?今晚,我会不会被带到毒气室呢?

沿着铁丝网,我来回地走着,想暖和一下我瘦弱的身体。我很饿,很久没有吃东西了。每天都会有很多人从我们当中消失,幸福的往昔犹如南柯一梦,我也日渐陷入更深的绝望之中。