THE BEGINNING OF THE HONEYMOON.
On the morning of his marriage, before he went to the altar, Lopez made one or two resolutions as to his future conduct.The first was that he would give himself a fortnight from his marriage day in which he would not even think of money.He had made certain arrangements, in the course of which he had caused Sextus Parker to stare with surprise and to sweat with dismay, but which nevertheless were successfully concluded.Bills were drawn to run over to February, and ready money to a moderate extent was forthcoming, and fiscal tranquillity was insured for a certain short period.The confidence which Sextus Parker had once felt in his friend's own resources was somewhat on the decline, but he still believed in his friend's skill and genius, and, after due inquiry, he believed entirely in his friend's father-in-law.Sextus Parker sill thought that things would come round.Ferdinand,--he always now called his friend by his Christian name,--Ferdinand was beautifully, seraphically confident.And Sexty, who had been in a manner magnetized by Ferdinand, was confident too,--at certain periods of the day.
He was very confident when he had had his two or three glasses of sherry at luncheon, and he was often delightfully confident with his cigar and brandy-and-water at night.But there were periods in the morning in which he would shake with fear and sweat with dismay.
But Lopez himself, having with his friend's assistance, arranged his affairs comfortably for a month or two, had, as a first resolution, promised himself a fortnight's ******* from all carking cares.His second resolution had been that at the end of the fortnight he would commence his operations on Mr Wharton.Up to the last moment he had hoped,--had almost expected,--that a sum of money would have been paid to him.Even a couple of thousand pounds for the time would have been of great use to him;--but no tender of any kind had been made.Not a word had been said.Things could not of course go on in that way.He was not going to play the coward with his father-in-law.Then he bethought himself how he would act if his father-in-law were sternly to refuse to do anything for him, and he assured himself that in such circumstances he would make himself very disagreeable to his father-in-law.And then his third resolution had reference to his wife.She must be instructed in his ways.
She must learn to look at the world in his eyes.She must be taught the great importance of money,--not in a gripping, hard-fisted, prosaic spirit; but that she might participate in that feeling of his own which had in it so much that was grand, so much that was delightful, so much that was picturesque.He would never ask her to be parsimonious,--never even to be economical.
He would take a glory in seeing her well dressed and well attended, with her own carriage, and her own jewels.But she must learn that the enjoyment of these things must be built upon a conviction that the most important pursuit in the world was the acquiring of money.And she must be made to understand, first of all, that she had a right to at any rate a half of her father's fortune.He had perceived that she had much influence with her father, and she must be taught to use this influence unscrupulously on her husband's behalf.
We have already seen that under the pressure of his thoughts he did break his resolution within an hour or two of his marriage.
It is easy for a man to say that he will banish care, so that he may enjoy to the full the delights of the moment.But this is a power which none but a savage possesses,--or perhaps an Irishman.We have learned the lesson from the divines, the philosophers, and the poets.Post equitem sedes atra cura.Thus was Ferdinand Lopez mounted high on his horse,--for he had triumphed greatly in his marriage, and really felt that the world could give him no delight so great as to have her beside him, and her as his own.But the inky devil sat close upon his shoulders.
Where would he be at the end of three months if Mr Wharton would do nothing for him,--and if a certain venture in guano, to which he had tempted Sexty Parker, should not turn out the right way?
He believed in the guano and he believed in Mr Wharton, but it is a terrible thing to have one's whole position in the world hanging upon either an unwilling father-in-law or a probable rise in the value of manure.And then how would he reconcile himself to her if both father-in-law and guano should go against him, and how should he endure her misery?
The inky devil had forced him to ask the question even before they had reached Dover.'Does it matter,' she had asked.Then for the time he had repudiated his solicitude, and had declared that no question of money was of much consequence to him,--thereby ****** his future task with her so much the more difficult.After that he said nothing to her on the subject on that their wedding day,--but he could not prevent himself from thinking of it.Had he gone to the depth of ruin without a wife, what would it have mattered? For years past he had been at the same kind of work,--but while he was unmarried there had been a charm in the very danger.And as a single man he had succeeded, being sometimes utterly impecunious, but still with the capacity of living.Now he had laden himself with a burden of which the very intensity of his love immensely increased the weight.As for not thinking of it, that was impossible.Of course she must help him.Of course she must be taught how imperative it was that she should help him at once.'Is there anything troubles you,' she asked, as she sat leaning against him after their dinner in the hotel at Dover.
'What should trouble me on such a day as this?'
'If there is anything, tell it me.I do not mean to say now, at this moment,--unless you wish it.Whatever may be your troubles, it shall be my present happiness, as it is my first duty, to lessen them, if I can.'
The promise was very well.It all went in the right direction.