Nicolas Poussin returned slowly towards the Rue de la Harpe and passed, without observing that he did so, the modest hostelry where he was lodging. Returning presently upon his steps, he ran up the miserable stairway with anxious rapidity until he reached an upper chamber nestling between the joists of a roof "en colombage,"--the plain, slight covering of the houses of old Paris. Near the single and gloomy window of the room sat a young girl, who rose quickly as the door opened, with a gesture of love; she had recognized the young man's touch upon the latch.
"What is the matter?" she asked.
"It is--it is," he cried, choking with joy, "that I feel myself a painter! I have doubted it till now; but to-day I believe in myself. Ican be a great man. Ah, Gillette, we shall be rich, happy! There is gold in these brushes!"Suddenly he became silent. His grave and earnest face lost its expression of joy; he was comparing the immensity of his hopes with the mediocrity of his means. The walls of the garret were covered with bits of paper on which were crayon sketches; he possessed only four clean canvases. Colors were at that time costly, and the poor gentleman gazed at a palette that was well-nigh bare. In the midst of this poverty he felt within himself an indescribable wealth of heart and the superabundant force of consuming genius. Brought to Paris by a gentleman of his acquaintance, and perhaps by the monition of his own talent, he had suddenly found a mistress,--one of those generous and noble souls who are ready to suffer by the side of a great man;espousing his poverty, studying to comprehend his caprices, strong to bear deprivation and bestow love, as others are daring in the display of luxury and in parading the insensibility of their hearts. The smile which flickered on her lips brightened as with gold the darkness of the garret and rivalled the effulgence of the skies; for the sun did not always shine in the heavens, but she was always here,--calm and collected in her passion, living in his happiness, his griefs;sustaining the genius which overflowed in love ere it found in art its destined expression.
"Listen, Gillette; come!"
The obedient, happy girl sprang lightly on the painter's knee. She was all grace and beauty, pretty as the spring-time, decked with the wealth of feminine charm, and lighting all with the fire of a noble soul.
"O God!" he exclaimed, "I can never tell her!""A secret!" she cried; "then I must know it."Poussin was lost in thought.
"Tell me."
"Gillette, poor, beloved heart!"
"Ah! do you want something of me?"
"Yes."
"If you want me to pose as I did the other day," she said, with a little pouting air, "I will not do it. Your eyes say nothing to me, then. You look at me, but you do not think of me.""Would you like me to copy another woman?"
"Perhaps," she answered, "if she were very ugly.""Well," continued Poussin, in a grave tone, "if to make me a great painter it were necessary to pose to some one else--""You are testing me," she interrupted; "you know well that I would not do it."Poussin bent his head upon his breast like a man succumbing to joy or grief too great for his spirit to bear.
"Listen," she said, pulling him by the sleeve of his worn doublet, "Itold you, Nick, that I would give my life for you; but I never said--never!--that I, a living woman, would renounce my love.""Renounce it?" cried Poussin.
"If I showed myself thus to another you would love me no longer; and Imyself, I should feel unworthy of your love. To obey your caprices, ah, that is ****** and natural! in spite of myself, I am proud and happy in doing thy dear will; but to another, fy!""Forgive me, my own Gillette," said the painter, throwing himself at her feet. "I would rather be loved than famous. To me thou art more precious than fortune and honors. Yes, away with these brushes! burn those sketches! I have been mistaken. My vocation is to love thee,--thee alone! I am not a painter, I am thy lover. Perish art and all its secrets!"She looked at him admiringly, happy and captivated by his passion. She reigned; she felt instinctively that the arts were forgotten for her sake, and flung at her feet like grains of incense.
"Yet he is only an old man," resumed Poussin. "In you he would see only a woman. You are the perfect woman whom he seeks.""Love should grant all things!" she exclaimed, ready to sacrifice love's scruples to reward the lover who thus seemed to sacrifice his art to her. "And yet," she added, "it would be my ruin. Ah, to suffer for thy good! Yes, it is glorious! But thou wilt forget me. How came this cruel thought into thy mind?""It came there, and yet I love thee," he said, with a sort of contrition. "Am I, then, a wretch?""Let us consult Pere Hardouin."
"No, no! it must be a secret between us."
"Well, I will go; but thou must not be present," she said. "Stay at the door, armed with thy dagger. If I cry out, enter and kill the man."Forgetting all but his art, Poussin clasped her in his arms.
"He loves me no longer!" thought Gillette, when she was once more alone.
She regretted her promise. But before long she fell a prey to an anguish far more cruel than her regret; and she struggled vainly to drive forth a terrible fear which forced its way into her mind. She felt that she loved him less as the suspicion rose in her heart that he was less worthy than she had thought him.